How ironic is this that right after I write my blog about not worrying about there being a guy in my life right now and how I'm the only sane one because I don't have a boyfriend or a guy that I like, I meet a guy! Now, I'm not saying anything is going to happen, but hey, he is cute, and we are friends! We've been texing each other a ton, but then I just realized that I have less than 300 to last me until the 21st, and if we keep texting each other the way we are, it's definitely not going to last. It was a sad day when I had to tell him we couldn't talk so much anymore, and oh darn, guess we're gonna have to hang out! He is a way nice guy. He's awesome.
No, I'm just going to come out and go right against what I was just barely saying. He's not the one for me. I think I like him, but I don't. It's because I want to like a guy so much, and to have someone like me that any new guy I meet, I will make myself like him. I'll think that I like him, but I won't. Because I met D and just the way we hit it right off and we've been talking til late hours and because when we met he looked me in the eyes (I'm not saying guys don't look me in the eyes), I automatically started to daydream dreams that weren't possible. I'm reading too far into things. D is a way nice guy, and way nice guys like that always look everyone they're talking to in the eyes. Maybe it was because the way I felt about myself that night. Lately I've been feeling really good about myself, what with acne clearing up and losing weight, so you can imagine that night at work that I felt rather...eh...prettier than normal, so I read into things and was thinking that he was looking at me because this girl he's been texting has turned out to be someone cute! I hope I didn't disappoint him. Maybe he was thinking possibilities, too. I'm not trying to rationalize these possibilites away. There is a chance...we kept talking that night. We talked late. I even called him (for M, but still), and as I was about to say good-bye, he told me to wait, and he talked some more. Nothing special. And then he came up to me to talk to me at school...Oh I don't know! Do I really like him or not? I think I'm just going to let time tell, and hang out with him more.

(for some people--there's going to be a repeat of this in neinsi, only for that darn grade)